02 Sep 2022
[Smt. lakshmi lavanya K asked: Pada namaskaram Swami, I always feel a sense of surprise that wherever and whenever I see Nandiswara before God Siva, he always focuses on Siva without deviating even for a second, I pray Nandiswara to grant me such devotion, I also think that how Narayana sleeps on snake bed by turning one side (because that is not normal bed) and how God Siva has given His half body to Goddess Parvati, what penance they have done to get such grace! I also want to become a permanent servant to God like them, I also want attachment with God like them, I also want to do penance like them in this birth, if there is any rebirth for me then I must born as Your servant like them. Please guide me how to do penance to get such grace, pada namaskaram Swami. Lakshmi Lavanya.]
Swami replied:- Actually, God will not support real devotion. The devotion shall thrive even without any guidance and support because love is spontaneous like a water spring that is jumping out from the earth. God always tries to put obstacles to the devotion so that the reality in the devotion can be tested. The devotee can ask for any boon from God, but not guidance and support in devotion. If guidance and support are required, such devotion is not natural and spontaneous. Such spontaneous devotion comes from the spiritual progress that has happened in the past several births. You must try to control and balance yourself. Even after such trials, if the devotion become uncontrollable, know that such devotion has the strength of spiritual progress that took place in previous births. You can decide yourself because you are the final Guru of yourself as God Krishna told in Uddhava Gita (Ātmano gururātmaiva). The inner self is the most effective final preacher. If the spiritual preacher Himself is the goal as well, such spiritual preacher will try to advise you in the opposite direction. We have to see whether your emotion is permanent or temporary. I can tell you that you are in the correct path of spiritual line.
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