30 Jul 2023
[Smt. Amudha Sambath asked: Pada Namaskaram Swami, please scold me Swami, I am not using time for Pravritti (basement for Nivrutti) and Nivrutti, not even focusing on understanding the knowledge from God (Shri Datta Swami). I am sorry Swami but I am not doing anything useful, I want to be at Your feet without any aspiration but I am not even putting an effort. I think that my mind and intentions are not pure, but Swami can cure me in all aspects to achieve You. Taking help from devotees to be stable and work on the path. Reading books, taking their advice from Your knowledge. Still I feel my fault is that I am not putting any efforts, really Swami. Missing the consistency or regular practice. I feel very shameful, fearful and hesitated to call to discuss about this Swami. I am sorry Swami.
Trying to be positive and having patience with Myself but I don't see any progress in myself and not putting effort. Staying in the same place. I feel like to run towards You to stay in Your feet but I didn't reach that level of selflessness, and did not do any penance without any aspiration nor taken-in complete knowledge. But whatever reason Swami I want to be Your slave. I feel stressed Swami.
It's Not me I have found You Swami, Only You made me to find You but I am in stress that even I got an opportunity to do some task from devotees, creation of video, tool to be learn, and all. I said No and I am not doing anything. I want to be in Your feet Swami, please make me do everything as per wish and words. I really don't need freedom but Your feet as slave. It's all my selfish wish Swami but I want to do all as per Your words and wish always. Jai Guru Datta, At Your Divine Feet. Pada Namaskaram Swami🙏🏻❤️]
Swami replied:- First, you should stop negative thoughts and self-criticism, which are slow poison to spoil your mental physical health. You should gain courage and self-confidence sufficiently to become normal. Be always proud and maintain ego that you are the disciple of God Datta in the form of Shri Dattaswami. I announce that you are My best devotee. Spiritual progress comes slowly and steadily. Whatever comes with lightning speed, it will also disappear with the same speed. Be patient till four months more. After four months, your situation will start changing and you will become normal. Till then (four months time) you sit before the photo or statue of God Subrahmanya and utter His name “Shri Subrahmanya” for at least half an hour. Visit the temple of God Subrahmanya on every Sunday. On every Sunday, distribute 18 laddus or vadai prepared from black gram to beggars. Follow My advice strictly. You will be certainly alright.
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