How can I know whether You are pleased by me or not?

O Learned and Devoted Servants of God,

[Smt. lakshmi lavanya K asked: Pada namaskaram swami, in every school in pravruti, management conducts exams, give results and progress reports, in spiritual school how can I know my spiritual progress, how can I know whether You are pleased by me or not. You have arranged for me, all basic needs, a peaceful worldly life so that I can focus on spiritual growth, but sometimes I am unable to control my emotions that I want to see You, talk to You, make friendship with You, after some time I convince myself that I am not eligible to do all these things because You are not pleased by me, You make friendship only with climax devotees, like this I think about You in a negative way deeply although I know in my heart all are not true, otherwise I cannot come out from depression and there is no way for my wish to come true. After coming out from depression, I doubt why I am getting depression while God is taking care of me, why I can't be always happy, Please guide me what to do. Pada namaskaram Swami.]

Swami Replied:- Firstly, you must avoid hasty emotions and become a balanced and peaceful soul so that you can plan your spiritual journey analysing various parameters that help and hinder your spiritual life. You can always get the guidance from Me in your spiritual journey. Sometimes, God favours certain souls, who are very junior in the present spiritual effort, which is the current account. The reason for such abnormal behaviour of God is that God can see the fixed deposits accumulated by that soul in the previous births whereas, another soul cannot see those hidden deposits. The soul can compare only the visible current accounts and hence, the conclusions of the souls are not final. In this context, even you do not know about your previous hidden fixed deposits and you also know only your current accounts and current accounts of other souls also. Hence, every soul is advised not to draw hasty conclusions about the actions of God. The devotee shall concentrate on the present spiritual effort only without bothering about the past and future. Detachment from the fruit of the progress and concentration about the effort alone is the best path either in worldly life or spiritual life (Karmaṇyevādhikāraste mā phaleṣu kadācana - Gita).