Please help me.

Shri Ashish asked: Bad son: O my mother, Swami. I am devoted to Bhagavan Vishnu, lovingly I call God as my own mother to embrace pure feelings and affection unto Lord. Hence, I addressed You as mother. I have been suffering...(Click here to read full question) since my birth, with education and constant stress from parents. I lack concentration, it led me to mental problems and trauma which I faced right up from my childhood involving school and family. They would beat me, but they don’t understand that I have issues learning. Mother Vishnu, I have cried so many times, you can’t count on fingers. How long shall Your dear son struggle, tell me maa? Will You not forgive my sins which maybe causing such pain in this current life? I have given up on you helping me, I know it will be impossible for you. But maa, I really love you. You put me in America so far away from Tirumala. Tell me how much I long for you day and night, wanting to be with you. Even that is taken away from me. I don’t desire anything, marriage, money, friends, family etc. because I know I’ve to struggle forever, I only want you and nothing else. What can I do in life with learning issues, my mind never listens to me. I even thought of dying, but you kept telling me not to think about it. I don’t understand anything being human, I am like a lost child who doesn’t know where he is, I dont understand this world. Everything looks hard, I’ve tried chanting hanuman chalisa many many times, but nothing is helping. Why maa, now I’m seeking you in your human incarnation as Lord Datta. What should I do, you know everything about me, I don’t need to tell about my identity. You see me, so please help me maa. By Ashish]

Swami replied:- You marry a girl, who is devoted to Lord Vishnu. Loneliness splits the mind into unnecessary ways. In the spiritual path, a companion cooperating with you is essential. This is the proper medicine suggested by the doctor God Datta on your prescription slip.

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